Unbearable Suicide Dream

Title: Unbearable Suicide Dream
Author: Nashimoto on DA :3
Pairings: Ruki/Uruha(one-sided?) , Aoi/??(one-sided?)
Genre: Drama, Thriller, Romance
Warnings: malexmale, gay sex, smut, bad english, seme Ruki, psychopathic Aoi, uke Uruha.
Rating:  R for now. NC-17 later....
Summary: Kouyou, the lonely beautiful man, who never liked to be social with anyone. He had to live alone, with his best friend. "The psychopathic Yuu", who was forced to the mental hospital. Until one day, he met the mysterious sex-addict man Takanori at a bar. They spend a night together and Kouyou fell in love with that mysterious man, they become friends with benefits, but Kouyou saw their relationships as a real relationship. Yuu in other hands didn't like their relationship together when he met Takanori, he tried to explain to Kouyou why he didn't like it. What will happen? Will Kouyou listen to Yuu? Why does Yuu hate Takanori? Why is Takanori so mysterious?
Comment: This is the prologue for my new fanfic "Unbearable Suicide Dream"-series. Let's just see what you'll think of it, and please comment. I want to see if it's worth enough to continue with it!


Prologue

I was walking through the doors, to finally meet the one person in the whole world, who I can talk with about everything. Shiroyama, Yuu. People would easily call him "The Psychopathic Yuu", 'cause he was forced into the mental hospital in young age, and had to stay there forever.
I've always wondered why he never tried to escape. Maybe he was glad to be forced to live in a room, with no socialisation. I know the reason why he had to be taken to the mental hospital, but I'm afraid I don't want to face that kind of fact, again. I know Yuu is a good person, I just know it.

I got escorted by a nurse to his room, room number 621.
When I walked in, I could see him sitting there right in front of his window, staring out through it. I smiled faintly and gave a sign to the nurse that she could leave us alone. She walked away, and I closed the door.

- Yuu, I said and stood beside his chair.

He looked at me, and smiled happily.

- Kouyou! he said loudly with happiness, I smiled back to him.
Please Kouyou, take a seat, he said and pointed to the chair next to his.

I nodded, and sat next to him. At first, we sat there and let the silence stay between us. Until Yuu started to sighed.

- The weather is quite nice today, he said looking out the window again.
- Yes, it is, I said, and looked out too.

It was early winter, the snow started to snow. You could only see the snowflakes fall down from the sky to the wet ground, but the ground remained wet and dark.

- You know what Kouyou? I love winter, it's the time of the year I can relax, watch how the snowflakes hit the ground, get to see the beautiful scenery the snow makes to this dark world, he said.

I, again, smiled at him.

- What do you think of winter? he suddenly asked me.
- Well... I don't quite like winter, I started.
- It's cold, and you have to take on really warm clothes. You can slip on the ground, because its slippery, and you know that I hate it. Lastly, I feel very alone during this time of the year. Sure, I don't like to socialise with people, but it feels like... there is someone out there who will understand 'the me', that doesn't like to socialise much with normal people, I said, and looked out on a tree.
- You know what? I think the reason of what you don't socialise much, is because you're scared that people will think bad about you. You're trying to get attention by people who aren't 'normal'. That can lead to horrible things Kouyou, I do not want you to be hurt by those kind of people, he said to me.
- I... understand, I said weakly.


The visit time was over in the mental hospital. I took my things, and walked home. I didn't actually wanted to go home, I wanted to stay with Yuu. I felt lonely without him by my side, he's my best friend.

Without him, I feel like I'm nothing but worthless in this world.